So I didn't get the assistant editor position, but I will be the senior writer for the news section. It's not entirely what I wanted, but I'm still excited. My friend Megan got the spot and my friend Catherine will be the head news editor. It will be a good year. It's always a good time when the three of us are together.
In my interview the other day, Ben threw out the line "no matter what happens, you still have two years left." Which, to be honest, I'm kind of tired of hearing. With everything that hasn't gone my way this semester, that's what I hear.
Because in reality, that's not true. All the things I've heard that about are for next year. Meaning that when the time comes to do it all again, I'll be doing it for my last year. So really, what they're saying is "you've got one more shot..."
Two years just isn't enough.
The paper is my new outlet. My new thing. I love ASUSU, don't get me wrong, but things have just changed around there. I don't feel like I really fit in with everyone anymore. There are still a few people I'm really close with, but I feel like the whole structure of it has changed. It's just not my thing anymore. I consistently find myself left out of things. There are conferences, etc. that while not everyone gets to go to, I feel like I'm at the point in my involvement and stuff that I should be one of the ones selected to go.
After I ran for office, on everyone's insistence and recommendation, and lost, it hurt. It hurt more than I let on. My adviser and others seem to be planning on me running again next year, but I doubt I will. I tried. It was fun. I learned a lot. But I don't think I'll try again.
I love my life, I really do. It's just been... complicated... lately. I'm am SO glad summer is here. My finals are over. My grades all turned out pretty well this semester, surprisingly. It's honestly been the semester from hell. So much stress, so much going on, and classes that I didn't love on top of that. I'm glad it's over. I'm ready for summer.
I should have warned you... but I didn't want you to think that I thougt you couldn't win because I thought you would but I wanted you to know how crappy it fells to lose. ramblerambleramble...
ReplyDeleteI am glad your finals went well and it has been a crazy week for all of ASUSU. I am sorry Girly running was fun but deff. a pain. love ya!
ReplyDeleteMegan! you are so awesome. keep sticking with it. I think with whatever you do, you will be great at it. I think the change will be good. Change forces you to learn who you are in certain situations. You are an amazing person, and as sad as it is to read about when people are going through hard times, its always inspiring to see their great attitudes and to empathize with them. what are you doing with your summer? are you staying in logan?
ReplyDeleteI think it's awesome that you went for editor and the ASUSU position. "Senior Writer" is nothing to sniff at. Keep your chin up and all that. You've already gotten this far and have done a lot of things.
ReplyDeletePS Hey some good news: you won my book giveaway for "Try to Remember"! Good summer read. Email me at pink_ink at q dot com with your mailing address (no PO Box) and I will mail it to you.
Every time I read your blog, I'm reminded at just how incredible you are. You are so smart, motivated, and genuine. I think you should be so proud to be Senior Writer...that is an awesome accomplishment. Keep up the good work and don't be too disappointed that things didn't go the way you wanted. :)
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