Thursday, December 31, 2009

Insights from Televison

I've recently gotten in to Grey's Anatomy. It's so great! Surprisingly, the show has a lot of insight to offer. Every episode has a line or statement that really grabs me. Here are a few...

"Mistakes are painful, but they're the only way to find out who you really are."

"For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something. You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head, so that when your lips finally touch, you feel it everywhere. A kiss so hot and deep you never want to come up for air."

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away."

"Pain, you just have to ride it out, hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets you where you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn't let up. Pain, you just have to fight through, because the truth is you can't outrun it and life always makes more."

**And my personal favorite...
"You can waste your life drawing lines, or you can live your life crossing them... Here's what I know, if you're willing to take the chance, the view from the other side is spectacular. Even the biggest failure, making even the most intractable mistake sure beats the hell out of never trying."

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

A Decade

My guess is a lot of people are going to write about this at some point this week.

The 2000s are over. Over. Gone.

The days of American Idol, YouTube, iPods and Facebook.

We had Olympics in Sydney, Salt Lake, Athens, Turin and Beijing.

We lost stars like Steve Irwin, Anna Nicole Smith, Heath Ledger and Michael Jackson.

The things we all remember... September 11, the space shuttle Columbia, Hurricane Katrina, the election of our first African-American president, the swine flu and all the fuss about global warming.

A lot has happened in the last 10 years.

These were the years I remember. These were the most influential years of my life. These were the years of my childhood. These years made me the person I am today.

What do the next 10 hold?

Wednesday, December 23, 2009


Kayde was right. Now that I'm home and have all this time, I'm blogging a lot more.

I love the feeling of a new crush. The new butterflies that set in. The anxiousness, the nerves, the wondering. Will it go anywhere? (like it so rarely does) Is he thinking and feeling the same things?

It's been a long time since I've felt this way. I like it.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Little Things

Here are a few things I want to talk about, but things that don't warrant a whole post just for them. They're more like tidbit blog posts.

-I HATE when people only seem to talk to you if they have something to whine or complain about. I don't mind a little venting (clearly) every once in awhile, but please people, have a positive conversation every once in awhile!

-I'm slightly annoyed at Facebook and some of the things that come with the new privacy settings. I used to leave open the chat windows of people I'd be having an ongoing conversation with or the windows of people I just enjoyed talking to. That way I would know when they were online or not, it made it much easier. But now, any time you close Facebook, it closes those windows. Even worse, a lot of times it closes those windows when you refresh the page, whether they're online or not!

-I have a new love of Grey's Anatomy. Anyone own the seasons? Because I can't really find them online... A few episodes are on Youtube, but most the other websites require you to sign up for something or another, or register, or whatever. I don't want to give them all that info when I'm sure I can find it elsewhere. I finally found a website that has them all, however, you can only watch 72 minutes at a time unless you sign up.

-I miss basketball. There's a tournament going on in Logan right now and I'm missing it. I don't miss games. This is so hard for me! Luckily, almost all our games are shown online now, but it's not the same. My family looks at me funny when I sing and cheer right along with everyone.

-I love Christmas cookies.

-Boys are frustrating.

-I wish I could just have it all figured out. I feel like there's a lot ahead of me this coming year with one best friend getting married and the other best friend leaving the country for a whole semester... I feel like there's a reason they're both going to be semi-gone and I want to know why. I just want to have my life laid out for me and know what's coming and how to handle it.

-I hate money. It's so hard to be surviving on my own. Life is expensive. School costs too much and so does living. Can't it all be free?

-I'm slightly sick and I hate it. It's just a cold/cough/whatever that I deal with every year, usually multiple times, but right now it's just annoying. It's my break. I want to be perky and healthy and having fun.

-I realized most of these sound a little complain-y, but oh well. Sometimes we all just a need a little time to vent right? :) Thanks for listening.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Songs With a Story

I have a love/hate relationship with a few songs. They are songs I love, but they bring back so many memories. For the most part they are good memories, but ones that are hard to deal with at certain times. Most of my really good friends are a year older than me, and most of them are guys. Due to those factors, most of them are out on missions right now. I miss them like crazy, and a lot of these memory-filled songs are memories of them.
Whenever I hear Here (In Your Arms) I think of Jeff and Zeb. We went to the midnight showing of Spiderman 3 and when we were driving home at 3 a.m., we rocked out to this song. Windows down, music and air blasting to keep us awake, we drove down Ina. We were the only ones on the road and managed to hit every red light. Finally, we got home, went to bed, and the three of us drove to seminary just two and a half hours later.
One Year, Six Months reminds me of the same group of guys. They are all very talented when it comes to music. They can all sing and play guitar. This was one of their favorites and we would all sing it all the time.
Last year, when Just Dance came out, Erin and I had this thing that whenever we heard it, no matter where we were, we had to do just that, dance. Whoever heard it had to text the other and let them know at which point that person had to dance as well. No matter where we were, we danced.
The song Breakeven will now always remind me of Tate. He introduced me to the band, but he has been so much more than that for me. He graduated this semester but luckily (for me anyway, I know he wants a real job and to move on) he's sticking around Logan for awhile :)
My junior year of choir (or maybe it was senior year... I can never keep them straight) we sang Billy Joel's And So It Goes. We rocked it, don't even worry. Since then, I've been in love with that song, and every time I hear it, I think of choir and how much I love and miss it.
I love Aggie basketball. We know this already. At the start of each second half, we jam out to Ozzy's Crazy Train. I can't hear this without thinking of basketball. A couple of weeks before the season started, I was in the library and it came up on my iPod. I grinned and I knew my feet were tapping in rhythm. The people around me were giving me funny looks, but I didn't care.
For A-Team, we have our intro video that plays at the beginning of SOAR days. Such Great Heights was one of the songs that played on the video of A-Team, Never Back Down '09. From here on out, I will think of the fabulousness (I may or may not have just made up that word on the spot) of the summer of 2009. The friends/family I made, the good times I had...
Those are just a few of the memories I have of certain songs and the way they have affected me. I know there are more. What are some of yours?

Monday, December 14, 2009


why I love being at home...
-yummy home-cooked meals
-the smell of desert rain
-getting the mail with my puppy
-In 'N Out, Eegee's, Nico's, Target
-2nd grade Christmas concerts
-the Continental Ranch ward
-Diet Coke runs with my madre
-Christmas cookies
-my bed
-playing (and dominating) Mario Kart
-wearing flip-flops, basketball shorts and short sleeves
-runs in the desert
-my chair
-playing the piano
-late night chats with the little bro
-warm weather

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Over and Over...

I love when I find that song that just sticks with me.
The lyrics, the melody...
I fall in love.
I love to put it on repeat. I listen to it over and over and over again.
I memorize the words.
I sing out loud, not a care in the world.
My newest obsession?
The Script. They're Irish. Enough Said.
I'm in love with Breakeven.
Thank you Tate for introducing me and being the cause of my new addiction.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

I'm making friends with the gym again.
I went tonight for the first time in a really long time and it was incredible. I'm in pain, and I will probably be really angry at Lee in the morning, but right now I am LOVING the feeling!
I'm going to keep running and stuff over the break and then next semester I plan to go to the gym at least three times a week. It's right here, it's free, I don't know why I haven't been going more.
I forget how much I love the post-workout feeling.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

This is a picture of the weather where I am right now. It's freakin' cold!

This is a picture of the weather where I will be next week. Warm!! (haha note the irony that Tucson has the "Winter Storm Warning")

Thursday, December 3, 2009

Dream Come True

I hate BYU. We all know this.
Last night, BYU returned to the Spectrum for the first time since 2005.
It was a beautiful night.
After all of the drama last year, it was great to see them in Stew's house.
It was an incredible game.
After waiting for 27 hours, we got in.
The student sections all filled up within 15 minutes.
We won.
My favorite part was this.

I've waited for the day that I could yell that at them.
The game was great. The fans were great. The signs they made were great.

And these are the people I am proud to be a part of.