Satan is a tricky fella.
He knows when we're at our weakest and when we're trying our hardest to be strong.
Just when you set your mind to something, realize you need to be better, or really make any sort of commitment that goes against his plan, he comes swooping in.
All at once you're attacked - both with the things that have always been your struggles and with the temptations you didn't know you had.
Sometimes you show him who's boss, but you know what? Other times you give in. You let him win.
Luckily, Heavenly Father is kind of the man.
He gets it.
He knows we're not perfect. He knows we're trying.
He wants to help us and wants to get us through it.
Just because things haven't necessarily gone the way you hoped or planned doesn't mean it's the end of the world.
He didn't set us up to fail.
He doesn't want us to be miserable.
Sometimes you happen upon talks that you know you've read or heard, but they just hit you completely differently at other points in your life. That was how it went with this one... (I'll embed it later when I'm not on my phone, but it's excellent. Watch it.)
The Hope of God's Light, Dieter F. Uchtdorf --- http://youtu.be/aOfg6NxUBkk
"Yes, we will make mistakes. Yes, we will falter. But as we seek to increase our love for God and strive to love our neighbor, the light of the gospel will surround and uplift us. The darkness will surely fade, because it cannot exist in the presence of light. As we draw near to God, He will draw near to us. And day by day, the hope of God’s light will grow within us, “brighter and brighter until the perfect day.”
Anyway... There's today's ramble.
It's good to know that everything will be alright, you know? Things are hard sometimes, but I think that's part of the deal.
On the one hand though, I'm glad for some of these things that have gone on this last year.
I've learned a whole lot about who I am, what I do and don't want and what I'm capable of.
Some of these things have sucked, but they've been good at the same time. I don't actually regret any of it.
So here we go. Off to work, ready to be better. Ready for whatever may be ahead.