Friday, April 29, 2011

Help Me!

Friends, Romans, Countrymen... Lend me your ears!

I'm getting THIS dress for my best friend's wedding coming up in a couple weeks. (not like the movie, don't worry)
Oh, and Mom/Erin, I decided to go with green.. It was the more overwhelming vote in the office.

But now here's the problem...
I need some fun shoes for the joyous day!

I'm thinking something like THIS.
You know, summery and fun...

So. Here's where you come in.
Find me some shoes folks! I'm open to any and all suggestions.. 

Wednesday, April 27, 2011


Burned out.
Wasted. (not of the drunk variety or course)

Thanks to, that's how I feel.

I'm tired of school.
I'm tired of cold.
I'm tired of stress.
I'm tired of interviews.
I'm tired of rejection.
(even in the things I may not desperately want.)

And really; this time around, I'm really ok with it.
It wasn't something I'd had my heart set on for a long time.
It's not like it's the only option.
But still.
(And Catherine knows that I love her and that she deserves this and will ROCK it!!)

I'm tired of crying myself to sleep,
tired of the tears in general - they give me a headache.
Plus it hurts to get mascara in your eyes.
Tired of the little things getting to me.

All of this "whatever needs to happen, will..."
But over and over again, nothing happens.

I'm not sure how much more I can take.

One of these days I'll have a more positive post...

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Thoughts from My BlackBerry

Weird... Never posted from my phone before, haha.

I'm spending Easter weekend at my grandparent's house. I love it out here.

I could live here.
I love the small town, farm town feel.
The air smells of alfalfa, smoke, manure, fresh-cut grass, and sunshine.
Everyone knows everyone and everything going on in their lives.
Life out here revolves around planting and harvesting, rodeo and baseball, and all the latest gossip.

At this house, we watch hours of Law & Order, JAG, Walker, Texas Ranger, and all the super-sappy Hallmark Original Movies.
There is an endless supply of snacks and Dr. Pepper.
The three houses in a row tend to converge into one with people constantly coming and going, in and out.

I love it here.
Can I stay forever?

On a completely different train...
It's funny the times things will just click.
It's no secret to any of you the stress and frustration of dating (or lack thereof).
My best friend is engaged.
The other is in a serious relationship.
My ex is dating someone else now (and I had to find out in a really unfortunate way).
This leads to a lot of lonely weekend nights, and to put it bluntly - a lot of jealousy.

A couple of weeks ago, I went to a wedding reception.
They are the perfect couple.
I've looked up to her as long as I've known her.
They are so happy and so in love. They are both in their 30s.
At the reception, a friend and I were talking about something Jenn had said.
She talked about how worth it everything was. All the lonely Saturdays, all the bad dates and breakups, totally worth it because of the man she finally ended up with.

Countless (ok, like 5) times tonight as I was watching the sappy movies my grandma and I love so much, I kept having the same thought.

Worth the wait.

While it all kind of sucks right now, I know it will all work out. It will all be my kind of perfect.

I can't wait for that.

Monday, April 18, 2011

And just like that,  I've officially applied for editor in chief of the Utah Statesman.

Scary right?

Why do I get myself into these things...?

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Too Far

I knew reality TV was a whole new world, but it has crossed a new line.

Tonight as I was browsing through, trying to find something to watch, a title caught my eye.


Naturally my curiosity got the best of me and I watched the first episode. 

12 brides go off to this mansion (just like any other reality show) in hopes of winning their dream wedding. 
They compete in challenges each week, with one person getting eliminated. 
As each advances further into the competition, they also get one step closer to their "perfect" body.
Each week, the survivors get one more plastic surgery done. 
Kind of ridiculous.

The whole 45 minutes is full girls whining and fighting with each other.
Stupid, catty drama.
At first it was kind of entertaining - very Bachelor-esque.
But then it got to the "wish lists" of what each girl wanted to have done to her body.
Most of these girls are slim, healthy, and don't need any work done, but they don't see themselves the same way. 
Absolutely ridiculous. 

I was still kind of interested, but then at the end, after the elimination, the host told the girl 

"Your wedding will still go on, but it may not be perfect." 

Too far.