Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Positivity

So I guess the last few posts have made me sound like my life is miserable.
Not so.
I'm just...
exhausted. burnt out. stressed. busy.
going slightly crazy.
missing the sunshine.
But I'm really doing ok.

So here are some other, happier, current favorite musical selections :)

Sing For Me (Acoustic): Yellowcard


All About Us: He is We (with Aaron Gillespie)



The Parting Glass: The High Kings



Basically they rock. 

Impact: Part Deux

This song is perfect right now.
(song starts at 1:14)



Little Miss down on love
Little Miss I give up

Little Miss I'll get tough, don't you worry about me anymore
Little Miss checkered dress
Little Miss one big mess
Little Miss I'll take less when I always give so much more

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
Yeah, sometimes you gotta lose 'til you win
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
It'll be alright again
It'll be alright again, I'm okay
It'll be alright again, I'm okay (I'm okay)
It'll be alright again, I'm okay

Little Miss do your best
Little Miss never rest
Little Miss be my guest, I'll make more anytime that it runs out
Little Miss you'll go far
Little Miss hide your scars
Little Miss who you are is so much more than you like to talk about

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
Yeah, sometimes you gotta lose 'til you win
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
It'll be alright again
It'll be alright again, I'm okay
It'll be alright again, I'm okay (I'm okay)
It'll be alright again, I'm okay

Hold On
Hold On, you are loved
Are loved.......

Little Miss brand new start
Little Miss do your part
Little Miss big 'ole heart beats wide open and she's ready now for love

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
Yeah, sometimes you gotta lose 'til you win
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
It'll be alright again
It'll be alright again, I'm okay
It'll be alright again, I'm okay (I'm okay, it'll be alright again)
I'm okay! (It'll be alright again)

Monday, March 28, 2011

Sudden Impact

I've talked about this before, but it's just on my mind again today.

This morning I remembered I hadn't gotten my hands (ears?) on the new Yellowcard album, When You're Through Thinking, Say Yes. So while I got ready, I let it download.


It's wonderful.
I mean, very similar to everything else they've ever done.
But that's what I love about it.

As I listened to the new songs, I was instantly full of nostalgia.
Yellowcard (along with Angels & Airwaves) kind of defined my high school experience.
Our group of friends loved these bands and it's basically all we listened to.

Thinking of specific songs led to specific memories and emotions.
It's fascinating what one album can do and the impact you can have.

Class is over, so I'm going to go listen to it again.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

So maybe I want to be a bishop's wife.
Is it normal to wish for that?

Today the greatest bishopric in the world was released.
They are three of the most incredible men I've ever known, and I don't know if they'll ever understand how much they mean to me and how much of an influence they have had in my life.

Each of these men have taken us into their lives, into their homes, like we are their own children.
They have talked us through struggles, answered questions, and been there for anything and everything.
They love each of us, just as much as, if not more than we love them.

They will be missed around the church building, but they know as well as we do that we'll all still be around.
They will forever be a part of my life.

So, to Bishop Reed, Brother Vaughn and Brother Hamilton...
Thank you.
Thank you more than words can say.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Escape

Sometimes I just want to go the airport

get on a plane

and go somewhere.

Somewhere new,

somewhere alone.

And just

escape.

Who Even Knows...

Been awhile, eh?

Life has been crazy. I need it to slow down. I need summer.
Last night ended in one of those solid cries that you just sometimes need.

All these engaged/dating people are starting to get a little out of control...
When people are in these relationships, they act like everyone else has fallen off the face of the earth.
Why??
People say that when it's my turn I'll act the same way.
FALSE.
I refuse.
Seriously, if I act that way I want all of you to slap me.

It's because of people like this that I feel very alone these days.
I haven't really talked to or spent time with my best friends in weeks.
Because of they're men.

I want one.
Seriously.
I'm tired of this alone crap.

I was watching a show the other day where someone said
"you love me in spite of my flaws," or something like that.
That's not what I want.
I want someone who loves me because of my imperfections.

When is it my turn?

One of these days I'll get around to posting about Spring Break (and Spring Break part 2).
It was basically an awesome two weeks.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Embracing My Inner Health-Nut

Seriously guys, this is one of the best things I've ever eaten.


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YUM!

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Tears and the steam from the bath make for an interesting pattern of mascara running down the face.

I don't know why it all hit me so hard today.
Just a lot going on, I guess.
I said one thing and that was that.
I was a mess from then on.

Every now and then I get the urge to call you.
Just to see.
Or to add you on Facebook.

But I don't.
I know better.

I just wish you wouldn't make things so hard.

It hurts me that you make things so awkward still.

I'm past it, I just hope you are.
It would be easier for me.

Answers are answers, whether we agree with them or not.
As hard as it may be, I've never been more sure of anything in my life.

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Almost There

I should be working on a paper.
I should be thinking in terms of scrutiny, privacy law, privilege and the GRAMA Act.

Instead, here's what's on my mind...












So close...

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Settle for a Slowdown

I really should be writing my Media Law midterm, not a blog post.

I dropped a class today.

It means taking a W on my transcript, but I don't even care at this point.
This class is was ridiculous.
I wasn't learning anything and the guy just wanted to talk about himself and how "awesome" he is the whole time.
It was part of the 18 credits I was taking and that was just too much.
Especially when the class just stressed me out.
He didn't really teach the stuff and changed deadlines all the time.

18 credits
+ 3 jobs
+ 1 internship
+ meetings
+ life              
a stressed out, not enjoying life, Megan.

Someone told me to "slow the hell down," and I couldn't agree more.
So that's what I'm going to do.

Now I'm going to stop procrastinating and write my paper.