Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Maybe it's because I can't get enough of this show...


Or maybe it's because I watch movies like this over and over and over...


Or maybe it's because I can't stop listening to songs like this...


Whatever it is, I'm a hopeless romantic.
And the thing is, I'm tired of this whole single thing. 
I'm close-ish to 21 and I've never been in a serious relationship.
I haven't been on an actual date in a year and a half.
I haven't kissed or been kissed in almost a year.
(yes, I know that doesn't exactly make sense... long story...)
I don't know why. It's one of the many things in my life that I don't understand.
I look at other girls who are dating and stuff, and I don't know what's different.
There are some who I look at and wonder what I'm doing wrong.
I think I'm funnier, cuter, happier, whatever it may be...
What do they have that I haven't got?
I listen to friends talk about all the boys they're dating/kissing/what-have-you, and just don't understand.
I'm tired of being by myself.
I'm tired of not having that someone to go to.
I want that.
I want it so badly.
I deserve it. Don't I?
I'm tired of it... When will it change?

3 comments:

  1. Oh Megan. I cannot tell you how many times I have felt the same way. It took a really long time to find the right guy. And it was not easy waiting that long. But I believe it took that long because he is the exact person I wanted as my husband. I feel that God was making my perfect person, I just had to be patient and wait for God to tell me when it was right. It will happen. You are an amazing girl that deserves someone so special, God is just taking an extra long time to make him. :)
    Just always remember to love yourself. If you love yourself, then it will be easy to love another.
    I hope this helps you... or at least makes you smile. :)

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  2. I feel ya girl! I could just say an all around ditto to your whole post. I am a freaking hopeless romantic.I am marriage hungry and its getting harder to suppress that feeling. I want a boyfriend or a husband real bad. Im sick of waking up and thinking who could i call to do something today, I want to be able to wake up to a text of 'good morning beautiful' and be immediately happy cause i dont have to worry about finding someone to be with. But Ive learned in life that you dont get to chose the guys, its a two way thing. You COULD lower your standards and there are plenty of guy out there that will go for you that will treat you wrong and not appreciate a single thing you do for or with them. But the fact of the matter is that as long as you have any sort of dignity and self esteem believing that you deserve the best, there is a waiting game for a that special guy to come along. WHY? because you have standards, because you want someone that will treat you how a girl should be treated. Who loves the gospel and himself and you and cares about the things that are important in life. THOSE guys only come around every once and a while. Trust me though megan, They are worth the wait, and you should never lower your standards for a great guy. You are smart and funny and cute and deserve the best guy out there. Just keep improving things that you have control over in your life and Heavenly father will send him when the time is right and you will be happy your waited.

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